shitfaced

a few nights ago i was on facebook looking an a friends recently posted photo album. it was pretty much just pictures of this person and their friends drinking. tonight i talked with a friend about our experiences with alcohol. yesterday i talked to andrew about when i turn 21. i've been drunk before, like totally gone, vomit on myself shitfaced (opps). i can't express how this all saddens me. believers, myself being one of them, pursuing things like alcohol and desires of the flesh over G-d's ways. what bastards we all are. i hate that there have been times i've been okay with this. i wish my friends would harshly rebuke me for these things, and that we'd rebuke eachother for our lies, but generally we don't want to offend, so we let one another slip into our drunken nights and out of life. i'm reading kings. solomon's heart is turned from G-d. it didn't happen in a day. it was slow i'd guess. he had many wives, and he turned to their gods, and his "heart was not wholly devoted to the Lord", and he lost his kingdom.

someone make us afraid of what we've become.