shower, flower, power, um, nower? no! that don't sound good at all! i'll call this one "how takin a shower when needed is really like followin Jesus!"

i like when i need to shower. when the day has seen me walking thru downtown and the park without shoes, and my feet are almost black on the bottom, and when i've been running so hard that i sweat thru a tee-shirt and i know i smell bad. i like when i get into the shower and it feels like it takes a few moments for the water to penetrate beyond the sweat and dirt and start to wash it all away. a few minor cuts hurt from the clean water and the soap. my hair was stiff before the shower, but it is nice and soft under the water with the shampoo. there is nothing like knowing you need to be cleansed and then having that happen in the most epic of ways.

i go to bible college, so i try to make everything relate.



the flow of seriousness and funness is important. a scale as i hear it called today. balance. a key part of living a healthy life is moderation, balance*. too much of either is overkill - for sure - i know!!! i am of the opinion that christians/church (they are the exact same thing, don't be fooled, fool (i only mean the 2nd "fool" in a cute, gangsta way)) have a poor and or skewed view of what it means to enjoy life and how that interacts with the life G-d has set out for us. i mean, we all have to have serious moments, they are good, healthy, totally necessary, however, largely, the church don't know what is up and how we are to have live. i mean, we're damn fucking good about preaching our morality, but fall short when it comes to teaching beauty (which came first) and joy. i don't want to miss the joy G-d calls us to because i want to live in the comfort of sadness, or insincere and unneeded seriousness.

tonight about 10-15 people, largely between the ages of 16-24, played lava monster for a good hour. running and screaming and jumping foolish distances on play ground structure. all the while being far too old to be playing a game for kids! fools! jesus was all like " if you wanna see the kingdom of G-d, you have to become like a little child". i've heard many a interpretation of this saying, we must become child like in our "faith", or "love", or yet another one might say "dependency", which are all good. but jesus said something much more EPIC, he said something much simpler, and we pick our something else. he said, and all he said, was we need to become like a child. i think he means this. jesus can be rather confusing, but i think he means what he says, and we pick out other things. what is a child like? become that. (the good things anyhow, jesus doesn't want you to end up like, say, the u.s president - oh!, political slam!).

the later it gets at night, the more i want to write. the later it gets, the more creative, and weird i get. sorry for that. it's 3am. i am too tired to do anything but type my thoughts, no proof reading. some of these thoughts came for talking to andrew tonight. he is the greatest, epic.


*i thought of this, in a funny sorta way, but it's worth sharing: you can't have too much, gosh i don't know how to phrase this, "Jesus", might work. you can't have too much Jesus in your life because you will alway have too much YOU in your life, so the scale will always error on the side of YOU, so the more Jesus the better, but still, balance. the summer after next i'll be able to drink, and thus have to learn moderation in a fun, alcoholic way! yeah yeah.