far-out in time (remember!!!)

i read that it takes something like (i can't remember that exact figure) 1/32nd of a second for your brain to process what is happening to your scenes. so, in your mind, you can only look at past events. all that we can know and view is past. i think this is very interesting. there might very well be a present time, but we cannot know it in our conciseness. the whole idea of living in the here and now is impossible. we are blind to now-ness. this makes me feel like i am drifting thru time without having any control. it's very far-out. remembering the now!!! this is only interesting to me because i just finished a book about hippies and the psychodelic movement, and b/c i am a nerd. i like to apply what i learn.

but like, whoooooa ma-a-a-a-an. there is no now, and if there is no now, how can there be any future? it's like we're swimming in a sea of the past, floating thru space of gone-ness. the past is present but the present is invisible until it has gone past.

maybe if there is no now, there is nothing and it all an illusion. when i get confused about something, it is plain that it does not exist at all. (i don't know how i am still a christian. )it is interesting that if we cannot take part in the now, if there is really a now at all, and if there is no now, is there anything new at all. if there is nothing new at all, is there anything at all - since all things have a beginning but there is no now, and no possible place for a start, there is nothing. or maybe the now is just 1/32nd of a second in the future, or past - depending on how you look at it. or now. would be the 3rd and most professed option.

my mind is reeling at the possibilities, is yours? (or, to speak properly, my mind WAS reeling)

bu-bye now!