why i got mad and what i thought afterwords

i felt frustrated, mad, because i saw one's myspace who i know claims christ, but the things they are proud of and the things they so proudly display are so damn contrary to the things of christ. the kinds of things paul called shit. and i know we're all sinful and have fallen short, but it's like you're not even trying! i try and fail, but man, at least i can cover up the messy stuff, and that's what counts right? looking good. i'm mad for a legit reason, people actively make christ look bad, like something he's not, however, while i try not to, i end up just hiding my sin, and being fake. i don't want to be fake, but i honestly don't want sin, but it's still there, and i don't really know what else to do with it up hide it. it's not like i haven't tried giving it to G-d, i have, but why does it always come back?

the other day for the first time in my life, i prayer that christ would come back soon, and i really meant it. i've never liked the idea of christ coming back that much. but, at least in that moment, i really wanted that. there can be nothing better. i'm starting to think it comes down to me setting my mind to the things of the spirit rather than the things of the flesh(aka, sinful nature).

relient k has some good songs, i still like "from end to end" and "i am understood?", but i think mewithoutYou's next. music always makes this type of thought process better. aaron's words are helpful.