oh those christians and their anti-christ ways

it seems that as christians, people who claim to follow chirst,we've missed the point. the whole "love thy neighbor" thing doesn't apply to us or something. for a moment i thought that it's just because most christians haven't been exposed to things like needing to help the poor, loving your enemies, peace, justice, whatever, things that christ embodies, however, this is not true. we know everything we need to know to be effective, but instead we debate if it's okay to have a beer as a bible college student for a damn hour. i'm feeling very annoyed. i wish i was doing something myself - i am not, but i want to. so bad. we as a body really don't give a fuck. and i wonder how that makes christ feel. christians are so full of shit, lies, hypocrisy, i just want to walk away. i swear i would if there was another way.

i'm pissed off right now. it might be righteous anger, or i might just be a prick. still, i'm so fucking tired of always seeing christians only using christ for their own purposes. i am glad, i really am, that you feel G-d sometimes and that he is there for you, i am, but what have you done for him? seriously. have you (or i) done anything for the kingdom? i doubt it. jesus tells us we serve him by serving the broken in this world, the oppressed, the poor, the lonely, the rejects. i love the idea of the wounded healer, because i know i myself am wounded, hurt, broke, jacked up, but i like that G-d uses these types of people, but only if we let him use us. i really have a hard time seeing christians as a group of people who have let go of themselves and taken ahold of G-d and his word and gone to work. i see christians 100% the opposite of christ.

may G-d save us and change us.

(this was written while i was pretty pissed off, but i think alot of it is true. however, cynicism is the easiest thing in the world taking little to no effort, the real challenge is getting us damn foolish christians to act like christ)