I'm listening to the new bright eyes ep, four winds ep, which i just got (stole) off the internet. it is pretty good. i like the song that is playing now, cartoon blues, number 5 of 6. i've also been listening to cursives "happy hollow", which i hated when i first heard it, and compared to other work by tim kasher, it is pretty lame, but it is still a good record.
oh! the meaningless things i give myself to!
um, i haven't read my bible for a few days. it just sits in my backpack not saying a word. i can be such a damn fool. i've spent more time doing useless things like taking showers than having reading words of truth that i desperately need.
i'd very much like to be in nashville right now. i think i might go on a "retreat" by myself some weekend. go to a yurt or something and just read the bible and pray and such. it think that that would be super-fly. things with mom and dad just make me sad and unable to focus. i'm having a harder time caring about things, i need to be "gearing up" and such for all my school work, but every time i find a peaceful place to sit down and get reading done, my thoughts always turn to sadness and i feel no motivation to be productive. i'm getting tired of the repetition of my life here at multnomah. i need more. i know i need G-d, yet so often, and other than a few scattered prayers, i don't turn to him. this is untrue and i know it. i do turn to G-d a lot, but right now i just don't feel real great. i'm in a small coffee shop and it is too hot and my coffee is cold, and i'm just feeling sad feelings. i hate being so emo. i never really thought of myself as emo until i came to multnomah and all my friends tell me this. i hate that term. i'm sorry, i'm not saying anything worth saying, but i just like writing out my thoughts and all.
this summer there is a small chance i might do an internship with a church in washington with their middle-school youth group. i'd like that.
i keep looking at my wrist and wishing i didn't have to rejoice, but it is a good reminder to praise G-d always. he is good. i gave him my life and i need to let go of it.
rejoice brethren! G-d is good. you are loved. everything will be alright in the end. i believe this to be truth.
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Hang in there L. I know that things can get repetitive and there might not seem to be any real reason to the way things are in your life right now...but God does have a plan for you and that's why he gave you friends and a great place to go to school.
Parental issues affect our society in a way that most people don't want to admit. It is hard and it is a core part of who we are. Please, if you haven't, take advantage of the counseling that is provided by the Student Services department at Multnomah.
I don't know you, but I'll pray for you, brother.
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