school

school started about a month ago, so this is just about that time when i start getting tired of school. the glamor of bible college is wearing off. i'm still glad to be here, however going to classes everyday and work and the repetition of college life is getting to me. my gosh i have to read so frig'n much this term! i like to read. but this is just too much bible/theology stuff and i'm tired. i miss salem a bit, but it'd be lame to be there all the time. most everyone is gone, which is why salem is so rad.

i feel like i've been learning a lot tho. i'm just bored right now. it's saturday night and i have a ton of homework to do this weekend, but i don't wanna! i want to smoke and walk around in the cold weather, but i'm not going to break contract (i could just walk i guess, but without nicotine, it's not the same).

andrew's band is playing in salem and i'm sad i can't go. i haven't seen them in a long time, and they're rad live.

i went to tennessee a few weeks ago to see dylan before he went to iraq. that was nice. it was interesting to be in nashville after a few years absents and having lived in portland. i used to think i'd like living in the south, but after having been in the epic city of portland, that just isn't the case any more. northwest till death. or G-d's leading some other place. i had a good talk with my grandfather about spiritual matters. i like him a lot, he's got some cool things to say, but i feel like (and my mom has given me this impression of him) i can't take what he says as all good. he's got a weird, old person, slant to his veiws. i wish i had had a better spiritual leader in my life than i did have. mom and dad were both good, but never great, never the kind of spiritual leader i want to be to my children. i wonder if dylan would care more about christ if we had had that. it doesn't really matter now i guess. he's going to be in iraq for 15 months, unless the US pulls out or something like that. i'm going to miss him, i hate knowing that he's there and i can't do anything about it. i pray that G-d will protect him.

gosh i don't want to do all the homework! it's so strange to have to do bible stuff as homework. it feels like a chore, and that is no good, but i've still goes huge assignments with deadlines.